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November 13, 2008

nalilito

sobra.. hirap pala mamuhay ng ganito, a good friend of mine knew about my life and sobrang nahihiya ako, di ko maintindihan, parang wala me mukhang i-haharap sa kanya. hindi lang sya isang kaibigan kundi isang malapit na kaibigan, di ko alam ang gagawin ko..

naguguluhan ako, he doesnt even bother to txt me na since the day he knew the real me, sayang naman yong friendship namin, i tried to contact him pero wala, di nag rereply sa mga txt ko. kaibigan ko sya he's supposed to understand me, di man lang me nagkaroon ng panahon na makapag usap..

sayang sana i touch ni lord heart nya at bigyan nya akong chance na maka pag-explain..

9 comments:

Mugen said...

Bigyan mo lang ng time pare. Nung nagout ako sa isang malapit na kaibigan, binigyan ko siya ng isang taon para...

i process ang nalaman niya tungkol sa bagong ako. Kung totoong kaibigan mo siya, matatanggap ka niya balang araw.

RONeiluke, RN said...

baka naman nabigla lang xa talaga... uhmm... i guess give him time...

Fjordan Allego said...

naunahan ako sa sasabihin ni ron hehehe..

pero tama.. nabigla nga naman un.. sigurado yun saka hayaan mo muna siyang mag isip isp.. kailangan nya nun..

http://fjordz-hiraya.blogspot.com

dabo said...

habang wala pang response sa friend mo, try to know yourself better.

homosexuality (or bisexuality) is a reality for you now.. and also with the people you have right now.

siguro di nga sya sanay.. and if the friendship is meant to end, so be it. God bless you with courage and wisdom.

the more you appear comfortable with it (not lost or confuse) people will perceive you differently and with dignity.

The Mikologist said...

well, pwedeng hindi lang bigla ang nararamdaman nya ngaun...

nung nag-out ako sa friend ko of 10 years:

???: Waahh, for 10 years, wala akong alam.
Miko: Don't worry bud, di pa naman ako nagkakaboyfriend.
???: Wwahh, p*ina, dati babae lang ang kinukwento, ngaun me lalaki na.

the point is, you've shared each others, supposedly, secret. ang malaman na almost half pala ng sarili mo ay hindi nya alam, parang it creates a sense of unfairness and betrayal.

hindi lang yung bagong "ikaw" ang pinaghihirapan nyang tanggapin, pati na rin ang "pagtatago" na ginawa mo nung times na dapat nagtiwala ka sa kanya...

pero ang totoong Friendship, kinakaya ang mga hurdles na ganyan. Kung sukat mo naman ang open-mindedness nya, ability to understand and forgive, then magtiwala ka...

pero kung sure ka na hindi ka nya matatanggap, then move on. a true friend may not accept every part of you, but he will not reject your wholeness for the things he cannot accept.

good luck,
and we are here to support.

thanks for sharing.
n_n

odin hood said...

di pa ako nag-a-out sa mga friends ko kaya di ko rin lubos maintindihan bakit umiiwas ang friend mo...

tnx kay mikologist, now medyo naintindihan ko na rin..

sad din mawalan ng friend. sana soon maging ok na rin kayo.

emar said...

waaa wats goin on here???hahaha!!wala bang mag iin?puro out lng?hahaha!!

napadaan lng po!hehe^_^

xxxborgexxx said...

that sounds sad. if it really affects you, make the move. talk to him. if it isn't ok for him i guess you need to just let it go. there really is no other way except to let go. some other time, some other place, maybe, but now, being all sad about it isn't gonna be healthy for you. you might've lost someone but you've still got yourself. i'm not saying the friendship you had shouldn't be all that important but really, if it wasn't strong enough for this "coming out," then you've got more important things to worry about.

akosimakoy said...

hainaku naman. baka naman kasi bading din yung frend mo tsaka yun nga... hmmmn. kung ayaw na niya di wag... KAWALAN BA??? hehehe!

 

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